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whats new [Nov. 12th, 2004|01:54 pm]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]
[Current Music |ja rule- new york new york]

Soo this is whats been going on in my life the past like month or soo....
* not going out with Pete anymore
* Grandparents are still not doing well
* Hanging out with new people
* Dating new guys
* REally starting to Fall for Jay (not jamies jay though)
* Chilling with Ray a lot- wish things could have worked out there
* See Jamie every once and awhile
* Got in a car accident
* Working through the winter at Bethpage
* Getting lost in the Bronx
* Smoking up with Chris and Jay all the time
* Ron ( lol Jamie) - your the only one who knows the story behind this
* Planning on moving to Virigina
* looking at schools in Virigina
* working out at the gym with mom
* Getting along better with family
* Playing lots of DDR with Chris
* Having People think Chris son is my son..lol..
* Listening to WAy to much rap and really likeing it..thanks a lot chris and ray
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hey [Sep. 6th, 2004|04:31 pm]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |gratefulgrateful]
[Current Music |pieaces of me- ashlee simpson]

its been awhile since my last post... a lot of things have happened since then...i know live at my grandparents house...i work up at bethpage state park which is a golf course....im going back to suffolk this fall after taking a much needed semester off......
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blah [Mar. 26th, 2004|07:41 pm]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |grumpygrumpy]
[Current Music |my way-usher]

long time no post again..whow im getting bad at this shit again....well whats new in my life...

nuthing at all.....

Today was awesome i got to go see my NIffer....YaY that made my day..i love her to pieaces...that girl just knows how to make everythign seem ok and what not...Jen i must see you again..cause i miss chilling with you.....and im gonna start to call u more often and talk to you...and have derek drop you off over here or sumthing soo i can see you.....we need to have a grunt night or sumthing one of these weekends...i miss yaaaaa...and i love youu...

Melissa- omg you need to come home soon...i miss you and i haven't talked to you in like 4eva....and it sucks cause i feel like i haven't seen u or talked to you in years and your one of my best friends..dont think i hate you or anything cause i love you soo much,........

all i have to say is i love my grunt girls.......GRUNT GIRLS FOR LIFE....... SMOKE OR GET SMOKED...MELISSA JEN AND HEATHER...LIKE WHOW.....


Jamie- thanks again for everything you are like family to me....i can defff call you my sister......i love you and i dont think i can tell you how much you have done for me means to me...cause words cant even describe it....i love you....

soo yea boys seem to be such a waste of time for me cause serioulsy there is always another girl in the picture or she just wont go away cause she is an ex...just when i thought i was happy something bad always has to go wrong...i think i am giving up on going out with guys...it is such a waste of my time..it really is...sooo yea thats enough on that topic.....

work sucks soo much,....i have to bring in a doctors note cause i called into work like 2 fucking times but whatever ....


life sucks and always willl....

aight enough venting for me for now........


im done.........
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fucking cool survey [Mar. 21st, 2004|05:25 pm]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |creativecreative]
[Current Music |New found glory]

pick a band and answer the questions only using their song lyrics

Band: New Found Glory

-Are you male or female?: "some girls are crazy"

-How old are you?: "I woke up today feeling older and never so much better."

-Describe yourself: "I felt good about myself That's until the day you showed me You don't need anybody else"


-How do you feel about yourself?: "I feel like im at an all time low"

-Where would you rather be: "It'll never snow in Florida"


-Describe where you live: "I've been searching up and down this coast"


-Describe how you live: "How can we make it through today
Without thinking about tomorrow?"


-Describe or say something to someone you love: "And you're, you're not here.And I can't stop pretending,That you're forever mine, and I.I can't dream anymore since you left.I miss you singing me to sleep.I can't wake anymore, in your arms.
I miss you singing me to sleep."

-Describe or say something to an ex:"Forget everything that we have done Erase me from your memory Don't call, don't ask about me Until the day hell freezes over."

-Say something to someone who broke your heart:"You would come over to talk,We'd act like there is something to say...I've learned that time can heal wounds But the reminder of a scar will stay..."

-Where do you see yourself in the future: "But someday you might care and I won't be there No I won't be there"

-Say something to an old friend who you lost touch with: "I've had a hard time, very hard time seeing less of you.I never thought you knew"

Describe how your feeling: "slightly bruised and broken from our head on collision"

Say something to a friend: "Here's to us fools That have no meaning I tip my glass to you Let's toast the night away to friends And forget about tomorrow"

And to conclude this: "It's your own life Live it for yourself"
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hey [Mar. 21st, 2004|02:18 am]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |crankycranky]
[Current Music |boy is mine]

long time no post............

drunk and confussed again....

seems to be the common thing for me now...i dont understand whats wrong with me ..........

dont know where i belong or what not.,...questioning who real friends are and certain peoples actions..........


grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


im done..i really am...what else is there in this world..like nuthing...i have no reason to be here.....


:( :( :( :(

always depressed...is taht a good thing ?? i think not....nuthing makes me happy anymore.....
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long time no post [Mar. 11th, 2004|02:06 pm]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]
[Current Music |end of the century]

well a lot of things have happened since i last posted....

lets just say im not living at home anymore...dont have my car right now.... :( ... yea i fucked up big time...i feel so bad i hurt my parents soo badly and i dont know what i can do to make it better..i have to show them that i can change and be a better person...i know i can...im better then that...soo yea hopefully i will be back in my house soonn....i can hope hope to god i am.....im staying at jamies house....

Jamie- thank you for letting me stay at your house..i know im prob a big pain in the ass and you really dont want me here at all but thank you for being there for me..it means a lot to me and i will never forget it...

soo yea i got my tongue pierced the other day..:) ...horray for that....chilled wiht vin while he was home for like 2 days then he ilke stopped hanging out with me to hang out with farall and the boys from stony brook..oo well im use to that shit...he will be back in a month anyways....

i miss jen a lot..i haven't seen her and it is driving me insane...i love my jennnifeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr.....jennnnnnnn we have to hang out soon,,,i miss youuuuuuuuu
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bored [Feb. 20th, 2004|12:53 am]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |bitchybitchy]

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happy [Feb. 12th, 2004|09:29 am]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |dirty-christina Aguliera]

I think i am Happy again for once in my life...horrayyyyyy
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tonite [Feb. 6th, 2004|01:28 am]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |awakeawake]
[Current Music |dashboard confessional]

Tonite was cooollll

Chilled with Jen and went to see how much it would be to get my tongue pierced..im gonna wait till my mom goes away b4 i do it...yay i get the house to myself...then i let jen practice driving using my car...shes doing really good yay for jen,.more fun times tommm

Then went to the movies with Jimmy to go see Along Came Polly..such a cute movie...yay for that.,..it was awesome to see him cause i haven't seen him in awhile....i think im seeing him again on sunday if im not busy but who knows

Tommmmm---- waking up early to see Jon before he goes upstate for the weekend....oooo how i am going to miss him...lol...Jon ur sexy...lol..Gangsta meNG85: i like making out
Gangsta meNG85: n i like kissing u ...look at how cute this boy is..omg....amazing...

AFter that chiling with jen sommeee more cause thats what i doo im cool like that......

Saturday- Babysitting with Jen making some extra cash for the weekk...

Sunday--hopefully seeing jimmy if not chillin with brian
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funny shit [Feb. 4th, 2004|07:59 pm]
HoPeLeSs
[Current Mood |busybusy]

EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS (Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot)= Cinammon no where

SOCIALITE ALIAS (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied)= heather the feather deer park

"FLY GIRL" ALIAS (a la J. Lo) (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)= H. GRI

DIVA ALIAS (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen)= Brownie Cascade

GIRL DETECTIVE ALIAS (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Last Went to School)= Cheattah Selden

BARFLY ALIAS (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Drink)= Brownie Cream

SOAP OPERA ALIAS (Middle Name + Street You Live On)= Ann Evergreen

PORN STAR ALIAS (First Pet's Name + Street You Grew Up On)= taylor brook

ROCK STAR ALIAS (Any Liquid on the Bar + Last Name of Bad-Ass Celebrity = Malibu Farrall
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